I far too often worry about life. I feel like everyone else's lives are moving forward, and mine is at a constant standstill. Of course looking back I can list multiple changes that have occurred, proving I am moving right along at my own consistent pace.
I guess lately, I've been feeling overwhelmed with a lot of things on my plate. I think some of it has to do with the stresses of starting a new job. My hours are a bit longer. I'm adjusting to a new rate of pay, a new office, a new atmosphere, new work, a new boss, etc. I'm super excited about this new opportunity, and I really think I'm going to love it. This change is good. It's positive. It's definitely a step in the right direction.
School is going good, but I'm ready for a vacation. I'm considering taking a class in summer school, but the break really would be nice. I've got a B in the class, and that's good enough for me. It's sad to say, I don't really care much about the grade, just as long as I pass. I just need to make it through getting my AA. It's going to be a tough battle. But with each semester that passes, I am that much closer. It's coming along slowly, but it's coming along.
I'm also currently taking my Hunter's Safety Course online. It's looming over my head. I really don't want to do it, but I need to get it done and out of the way...only to have to take my Bow Hunter's Safety Course after that! Ugh. My dad signed my mom, sister and I all up for the Hunter's Safety Course when my sister and I were in elementary school. My sister and mom finished the course then, but I was too little and would fall asleep in class. Needless to say I never enrolled or completed it, which is way I'm paying for it now! It's just one more thing to worry about. It's just more work to do. I will be so glad when it's done though. I will never have to do it again!
I haven't been sleeping well at night either. I think it's all of everything in my mind keeping me up. It's the mental list I go over in my head. It's the anticipation of my alarm, so I'm not late to my new job. It's the pressure of knowing I need rest, because I feel like I'm fighting getting sick.
Even though sometimes it feels like I'm going nowhere, I think I need to look at it in the opposite. Maybe I'm just going in so many different directions. I go from a new job, to hunting, to running, to school, and that's only a few things. That's not even counting all the in between, random, and every day things. But maybe this was all I need, to get it off my chest. To lay it out in front of me. To vent.
Tomorrow is a new day.
